Posted by Deneb on August 1, 2005, at 18:56:26
In reply to Re: I *need* to do well in school » Deneb, posted by Ilene on August 1, 2005, at 18:25:02
> Oh boy, I can relate to this. I either got A's or incompletes or dropped out. I did the best in school when my depression was better, for whatever reason.
I'm glad I'm not alone. :-)
It's good to know things worked out you. :-)
Maybe I have some hope after all.
> That sounds a lot like depression.I don't know what it was but all I know is that I'm totally preoccupied with death during those times. I spend hours and hours researching methods rather than studying. :-(
It's difficult to study for a midterm when one thinks one is going to die in the next couple of months anyways. One of the reasons why I decided to drop the whole of my previous semester was because I had sort of planned exam day as THE day. :-( I think maybe that sort of thinking is dangerous.
> I basically flunked out of college, but then went back and did it over. I did better in grad school. I found there are a lot of people who messed up big time, then pulled themselves together and got an education.I haven't flunked out yet, but I'm starting to think that perhaps a redo will be wise. I don't think I've learned enough in the classes I did poorly on. I don't want to "just pass"...I want to do well!
I'm just going to be slow to start life...there is not much I can do about that...maybe it is not so bad. I'm in no rush to head out there!
Sometimes I wonder is some small part of me wants to prolong school as long as possible because I'm too afraid of the real world?
> The "you" that comes across in your posts sounds a lot more together than the description of people w/ BPD.
Thanks!
Deneb
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