Posted by Deneb on August 1, 2005, at 0:47:08
In reply to Re: I *need* to do well in school » Deneb, posted by alexandra_k on July 31, 2005, at 22:43:54
> > I'm curious about all those p-docs people talk about who are all about meds. So far I haven't met any p-docs here who are like that.
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> Probably because you have been dealing with mental health providers in an academic environment rather than in something comperable to community mental health...Hmmm...maybe I'm too quick to generalize on this. I've only seen one p-doc long enough to know her treatment methods. Another I saw a long time ago, he said he was mostly a talker. Then I saw like 3 in the hospital...not sure what they are like. The guy who decided I should be locked up was not very nice...he seemed nice, but once he got me to say "ok", he quickly left with the two residents who were with him to observe...it sure was scary! I politely asked them if they would like to site down cuz they were like towering over me and staring at me! I wonder if there was anything I could have said to *not* get locked up...boy did I try to convince him! It obviously did not work because he got the nurses to take away my stuff and watch over me after he left! I left my room when the nurse went away and then they brought me back and I wasn't allowed to leave the room. I still get a little angry over losing my freedom like that.
> Yeah, I think they learn how to do therapy. Not sure how much time they spend on that vs learning about meds and physical exams and filling in compulsory assessment and treatment papers and discharge papers and defending ones decisions in court ;-)
That's brave of your p-doc to decide to defend his decisions in court! I don't think my p-doc can lock me up, she doesn't have hospital privileges. Isn't there someone here at Babble who is studying to become a p-doc? Maybe she/he can shed some light on what they learn.
> And maybe she can refer you on to someone else.I won't mind that, but it would be a pain to have to explain everything again to the new person. By golly it sure was a pain to repeat my version of *why* I OD'd over and over and over again!
> From what I remember you live not so far away from a fairly major hospital. That hospital might well have DBT. You might be able to do that through them. That really would be worth looking into.
That's kind of scary though. I went there two times (I think) I was super scared and embarrassed to even be in a psych hospital. I don't know if I could do something like that. I keep thinking that others must think I'm a crazy person or something. The p-doc there was nice though, he's the talker.
> Ask your p-doc about once weekly. Or about once fortnightly. Once fortnightly with once weekly when you hit crisis could work out good. if you don't ask you are unlikely to get...
I'm just going to take things one step at a time. :-)
> > She told me that she wasn't stressed out by me. She said that I was only worrying myself!
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> LOL! Deja vu. I think Dr Bob has said something similar ;-)Oh dear! What have I done? I didn't mean to compare them that way!
> Yeah. I know what you mean. It can be really helpful just to be able to be matter of fact about some things.Yep, definitely. It's great that she didn't make a big deal out of my ODs. She just made me throw away the pills. This means that she thinks it is a bad idea for me to OD and that I shouldn't do it.
> I guess I was just pretty sensitive and generally demanding... And my mother was pretty insensitive and generally demanding herself... And so it is a combination of my having intense emotional states and inability to regulate them (cause they don't seem to do it by themselves and I haven't really learned how to regulate them myself). A little bit of nature... A little bit of nurture...
I think it's great that you can see patterns of how your past affects you today in an objective way. Me, I haven't been able to find much of anything yet to explain the way I am.
> So...
> Sorry to be a pain...
> But are you going to ring her??????
> Let me know what she says.I will phone her tomorrow. I'll get the answering machine because it is a holiday. She won't call me back herself.
Deneb
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