Posted by Shy_Girl on May 8, 2005, at 15:32:02
In reply to Re: Feeling better...seizure theory? » Shy_Girl, posted by alesta on May 8, 2005, at 15:06:35
> glad you're feeling better..wish i could be more supportive right now but my resources are a bit on the low side. but you know i love ya!
It's ok :-) I wish I could be more supportive for you as well...I thought I could for a while, but then, you know, things just got out of hand for me.
>you were so great for me a few days ago
It feels really good to know that I made a difference somehow. :-)
> i don't know why your emotions get so out of control. perhaps when i'm more together we could delve into this..it could be a personality disorder such as borderline personality disorder or manic depression (although i don't think rapid cycling would be *that* rapid..would have to check on that.
I'm pretty sure it is borderline personality disorder. I think you are right, rapid cycling does not cycle that fast. Sometimes the emotional triggers are apparent, sometimes they are not. Stress really makes things worst. I'm stressed out right now because I can't seem to do anything...I'm too afraid to get a job, I don't know if I've ruined my academic life, my room is a mess etc, etc.
> would also help to know if circumstances/interactions with ppl trigger your emotional reactions or if it feels more like a biological thing that 'takes over').
There are definately triggers. One really big one is rejection...real or imagined. The switch from one state to another is really quite dramatic...and that is the thing that worries me. I am sometimes out of control. Fortunately, I sometimes respond to reason.
> anyway, we'll have to delve into these things ITF..i'm not feeling lucid enough right now to be of significant assistance...
Totally understandable. :-)
> anyway, i think you and i are in the same boat, here. you put the rope away, and i'll toss my 'plan' into the trash. capeesh? talk to me girl.Right now I've hidden my rope under my bed. I'm going to have to wait until my sister leaves for school to return it. I know I won't be alone until Wed. If I stay the way I am now, I won't go through with it. I will get rid of the rope...it is too dangerous...even for "practice." Ok, yes Amy, I will get rid of it if you get rid of your plan as well.
Thanks (((Amy)))
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