Posted by Shy_Girl on May 7, 2005, at 21:42:49
In reply to Re: Do I belong in this world?, posted by Shy_Girl on May 7, 2005, at 19:55:39
I feel like nobody feels my pain, which is very self-centred because there are many people in this world who suffer more than I do.
I am truly sorry for treating people like cr*p here.
I'm sure I'll became "happy" again a few days from now, just like how I'm sure I'll be suicidal again. The truth is, the statistics aren't looking too good for me. All the "false alarms" are not helping me. Soon one day, the wolf will really come.
You know, it is true, I only want the pain to go away. But it is also true that there is such a thing as a terminal mental illness. When I die, I want to be cremated...I don't want a fancy funeral. I want to donate my organs...but it may be tricky...timing things just right so I am brain dead only. I would donate my body to medical science, but I'm too hideous.
I've not accomplished anything in this world, so it is no biggie. I have no friends to miss me. I have no dependents. I have no money, no life experience. I can't even drive yet. The truth is, my life is already over. I'm just waiting to die.
Anyways, thank-you all for humouring me and responding. I hope I was at least a little bit entertaining. Again, don't worry about me, my sister is coming home tomorrow. There is no way I can be alone with her home.
thank-you again for listening, sorry I was such a b*tch at times
poster:Shy_Girl
thread:494526
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