Posted by alexandra_k on May 8, 2005, at 6:12:29
In reply to Re: Sorry everyone, posted by Shy_Girl on May 7, 2005, at 21:42:49
The world feels especially unreal to me when I am stressed out or really tired or sick. But it does feel like that sometimes. It is called derealisation. The other one is depersonalisation. Thats when you don't feel that you are real. I get that one too. Sometimes I feel a bit like I don't even exist. Like I am all empty or fading away.
It is a feeling that comes and goes.
I think you can relate to people.
I think you can see people as more than objects.
Relationships are a matter of give and take.
You receive support
You give support
And others are feeling good when you are not
And others are feeling bad when you are not
And so if you give support when you can
You are more likely to receive support when you cannot.
And friendships take time.
But please don't feel that you haven't been accepted here.
People are still here.
Reading your posts and responding.
People grow to care about you
Most especially if they think you are growing to care about them.
>I am an Atheist...I believe death is just like not being born yet...it is nothingness.I believe the same :-)
Don't feel hopeless.
I know it may be hard to believe
But things will get better for you.
Things that seem overwhelming now - you will be able to do them. It will get easier.
I am staggered when I think how far I have come in the last 5 years.
It hasn't been easy.
Really.
I'm sure you can imagine.
Mostly I just wished I could just curl up and die.
But that never worked out for me.
And now I am disfigured by failed attempts.
Believe me, that was not worth it.
If I could take that back - I would.Would your hamster like a friend?
There will be other hamsters.
People too.
People who care about you and need you.
You say your mum works real hard to give you and your sister a decent life.
That makes me think that one of the biggest insults you could do her would be to kill yourself.> I feel like nobody feels my pain, which is very self-centred because there are many people in this world who suffer more than I do.
More to the point there are people who suffer similarly.
And people who have suffered similarly who have gotten better.
F*ck the stats.
I let them dictate my future for too long
They made me feel hopeless.
You have to make the decision for yourself:
F*ck the stats.
You are going to get better.
You are going to have a life worth living.
You are going to get to be a researcher.
Or whatever it is you want to do.
> You know, it is true, I only want the pain to go away.Yeah. I get that one. Really. I never wanted to die. Just wanted the pain to stop. Thought death meant that I would never ever have to feel pain again. But, you know, it also means that you will never ever have the chance to feel happiness either. To feel cared about. It may not feel like there is hope - but I reckon there is. And death will come soon enough at any rate. We are just a brief flicker really.
Yeah. I want cremation. I want to donate my organs too. But I don't think they would want my organs. I wear glasses, so they won't want my eyes. I smoke, so they won't want my lungs. I don't imagine there will be anything left of much use when I have finished with it.
But yeah. Donate to science, thats the idea. They can show the med students the perils of smoking and too much cholestorol or whatever. OMG look! The smallest frontal lobes I've ever seen! Let them have fun with it. Maybe they'll get to learn something. It doesn't matter to me at all. It might help or amuse someone else. Thats cool by me.
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