Posted by ceesea on December 15, 2004, at 7:25:51
In reply to Re: over everything » ceesea, posted by alesta on December 14, 2004, at 3:51:59
had a horrible day today. went to my psych and bf came with me cos he is concerned psych was not taking me seriously enough.
by the end of the appointment my meds had changed again, so i'll still be on lithium (my level is 1.1), oroxine, and now add epilim and stilnox to that, removing edronax and serapax. I'd never heard of treating depression with 2 mood stabilisers before but i guess it is kind of last resort territory. he really wants to try lamictal but to do so first we have to find out if dad's health insurance would cover the cost, and then he'd have to write the script to dad so we could claim it.
psych will see me over the christmas break even though the clinic is closed, he'll do it at the hospital attached.
i then went to work and worked for about 2 hours, until suddenly i got violently ill. i was sent home by a nurse who does admin, the rosters, she heard me in the bathroom, waited outside and said i was just too sick to be there and told my supervisor etc that i was going. i was crying when she told me this, i try so hard to come to work (battling the general depression side of things) and then suddenly i'm throwing up and can't stop even though i haven't eaten much. i wasn't even nauseated before it just hit me suddenly.
btw i NEVER cry in front of people.
then i couldn't get on to bf to have him pick me up, there is no way home from work without a car but his receptionist wouldn't get him out of his meeting. it took me 10 minutes to get on to my mother and i sat outside the hospital crying until she got there. bf came and got me when he found out what happenned and took me home, really angry at the receptionist.the only good thing is that i've been terribly worried they'll sack me at work - i've only been there two and a half months and have been sick a lot. but my mother (who works there also) was approached by our boss when she started work this afternoon to say that i shouldn't worry about it and i can take all the time i need. work knows generally that i have mental health problems. they are very understanding and supportive (you'd expect it from a hospital but it doesn't always follow).
i plan to go to my GP tomorrow and ask to have my gall bladder checked, maybe another gastroscopy done, an ECG and anything else that might have any influence on my stomach, cos i have had too many probs with nausea lately.
i'm so tired, exhasuted by trying and not getting anywhere. scared of changing meds (again) and scared nothing will help. frightened i will get sent for ECT again to keep me alive.
i don't know what to expect from the days anymore.
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