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Re: over everything

Posted by ceesea on December 11, 2004, at 18:15:52

In reply to Re: over everything » ceesea, posted by Toph on December 11, 2004, at 8:52:28

hi Toph
i have been here before a long time ago. i guess some background is appropriate though, hey? diagnosed with depression 4yrs ago, though i had felt that way my whole life. breakdown 3.5 years ago where i was first hospitalised and the medication merry-go-round started. 2 yrs in and out of hospital on and off drugs and several goes at ECT. last april I started seeing a new psychiatrist and he has kept me out of hospital so far. i'm running out of things to try though...on edronax, lithium, serapax and xanax (prn) at the moment, but the lithium has made me hypothyroid and i have to take oroxine for that.........etc etc.
have been with fiance for 4.5 yrs and he knows all about it, he is wonderfully supportive but i feel like i have given him enough grief. He's had me ODing, he's had to call the police and have me taken to hospital, and he had to care for me full time for about 9 months when the ECT and stuff was happenning. not planning to marry for a while though, maybe 2007....both come from split families so the piece of paper is not so important to either of us.
i'm trying to work and work is supportive and are changing me to 80% workload but it's just all too much. nothing gets done at home, i have no desire to do anything at all. oh and i'm pretty pissed off that 3 yrs of intensive treatment (therapy meds etc) has left me right back where i started - able to appear normal but unable to function or enjoy myself.
my psych and i have (seperately - we just happen to agree) diagnosed me with major depression, chonic dysthymia, avoidant personality disorder and *anxiety* of some sort. psych doesn't know about the OCD traits or the bulimia because they are side issues at the moment. my psychologist does know though.
sorry
whinging i know
i hate this i wish i could be a positive happy person
i'm just so damn tired of it all
thankyou so much for your reply! i don't feel quite so isolated anymore.
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