Posted by Toph on December 11, 2004, at 8:52:28
In reply to over everything, posted by ceesea on December 11, 2004, at 5:46:37
Nice to meet you, ceesea. Sorry you feel so bad. I'm here on my computer, too. You'll find a lot of desperate people here. I don't know what is eating you up so, but that "intrinsic anxiety" thing strikes me as odd, like it's untreatable or something. Sorry if this is Pollyanish but I can say with certainty that the only definitive diagnoses for you is "intrinsically human." Humans hurt and humans heal. Look, you don't want to go into a marriage totally blind about the other person. So your fiance is getting to know some of your weaknesses early. The fact that he still wants to be with you when you are not on top of things is actully a good sign for your future together. Believe me, you'll see a few of his blemishes in due time. Anyway, your depression sounds serious and I have a hunch that theres some chemistry that may need adjusting. You express yourself well and so there's lots to be hopeful about. Don't rush into your marriage. They whole ceremony thing can be a real stressor. Stick around, I'd love to hear how things work out for you.