Posted by JenStar on August 19, 2004, at 16:59:04
In reply to How do I get through this...?, posted by Klokka on August 17, 2004, at 9:20:33
Klokka,
I'm so sorry! The death of a pet is awful. I'm so sorry.I have a pet story, too: If it's too painful, please stop reading now...
When I was about 13, my mom got pregnant with another baby - a surprise baby. My sisters & I had adopted several cats from the alley behind the house; they had become housecats with a litterbox inside and food & toys & the whole nine yards. wE LOVED those cats. LOVED them.
However, the doctor told my mom that she needed to get rid of the cats because a pregnant woman can get toxoplasmosis which can harm the fetus. So my parents boxed up the cats and took them to the vet to be put to sleep. I remember that all of us girls rode along, in the station wagon, crying. Afterwards my dad got us icecream. we ate it. Life went on.
Months later, I felt angry and depressed and like I'd failed the kitties. I was sure I'd hate the new baby. I blamed the baby and my mom for killing the cats. Wasn't there another way~!?? Couldn't we give them away...bring them to a cat farm...something??/!!!
When the baby came, we all loved him (of course!) and forgot about the cats. pretty much. To this day, I remember the pain and sadness and utter desperation I felt, knowing they were going to be killed. It's a horrible memory.
I wouldn't trade my brother for the cats, mind you! Not at all. I love him...much more than any cat, ever. :) I know my parents are not cruel and they made the decision they felt was best for the family. It just hurt. Still does. I still remember how much I loved those kitties. Sometimes life just plain SUCKS!
Anyway, I sympathize with you. I'm sorry you're suffering. Nothing I can say will help, I know, but I do care and I'm sorry.
JenStar
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