Posted by Klokka on August 17, 2004, at 9:20:33
I just posted about this in Grief, but my cat's at the clinic right now, going to be put to sleep sometime today. The circumstances are going to make an already unpleasant family situation even harder to cope with - he did NOT need to be put to sleep, and I had no warning, and my mother didn't even make it so that I could be with him when he died. I hate myself so much right now. To make matters worse, my pdoc is away. We're about halfway through a month break right now. I'm going to call the T who's covering for him to make an appointment, but it's just not the same.
All the same... I register for college tomorrow. I need to pull myself together and pay my fees and buy my textbooks and talk to one professor about a fundraiser coming up and give my program coordinator the heads-up as to my... condition. (I find it goes easier if I warn them that there might be problems before any actually occur.) I don't know how to do that. I can't stop crying right now. Twenty-four hours after I hastily whispered, "I love you, boy; I'm sorry" before they took him away, I'm going to have to as composed as possible. How is this even possible? Any tips?
poster:Klokka
thread:378596
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