Posted by Corafree on July 14, 2004, at 12:31:32
In reply to Re: i'm still here dear.. » Corafree, posted by Elle2021 on July 13, 2004, at 7:14:12
Thank you. Every little message like this gives me more hope. I have written my 'will' of sort and given it to my daughter. I don't intend, but I just have fears and don't want to leave my children with the burden of an elderly emotional broken mother, ya know? Today I have hope. I am doing well on Effexor-XR 75mg am and 37.5mg about five hours later in the day, and then trazodone for sleep. Fears are about docs taking away anxiety med and pain med. I'd be bedridden. Everyday I have hope is a good day. I wonder so often about the spirituality of suicide. Good can conquer evil, I think. I feel I've been short-changed too long a length of time of the 'good' and that's when I consider suicide. I pray. I don't abuse alcohol or meds. I'm no angel, but I really wonder - if your life doesn't give you a break, maybe you are called upon to give yourself a break?