Posted by corafree on July 15, 2004, at 9:19:44
In reply to Re: i'm still here dear.. » Corafree, posted by Elle2021 on July 15, 2004, at 2:20:04
I awoke this a.m. too early. My first thoughts were what I was feeling...pain in my body. I was thirsty so had a pepsi and a pain pill. I guess besides the extruded discs C2-3,C3-4,C4-5; I have arthritis and I feel pretty sure fibromyalgia. I think I may wake because of pain. I wish my doc could walk in my shoes. I have great fear that he will take away my med. Suicidal thoughts linger, and I think it is the pain I wish to escape, mostly physical, some emotional probs'. It's nice to have you to talk to. I have been a bit too open and emotional w/ my doctors. I think it is better to try and keep yourself together, not get too upset, and not too desperate, as I think these are called 'red flags' that they take as pill seeking! They get caught up in protecting themselves from me, talking about addiction; but I feel I may be physically dependent. Like I said, I don't abuse illegal or prescription meds. Pray my doc trusts me and doesn't through me to the wolves. Will find out in couple weeks. In meantime, he wants me to see a fourth pain specialist! Have three names to pick from - will call Board of Medical Examiners and get info on each, before choosing one. Have a nice day back at ya'!
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