Posted by leeran on May 5, 2003, at 14:41:50
In reply to For leeran, what people think of ..., posted by maryhelen on May 5, 2003, at 14:18:17
"I hope this post isn't too disjointed, this new med it getting to my head."
No, not at all! I could particularly identify with this:
"The funny part is, though, all of my energy is spent hating myself and thinking I am a poor excuse for a human being, that I am weak. I put the thinking of others onto myself. Yet, I have such respect for the courage of those to get the help they need and fighting, sometimes, what seems an never ending battle."
I've spent many years in denial. I've never fully understood what "normal" is and to top it off, I've always been very busy trying NOT to be like my mother. All that took a lot of energy along with "real life" stuff like keeping my career going and trying to raise a child without an instruction book. Then early menopause came along and I just wish I could see a print-out of what's what in my head.
I'm pretty certain that I'll be the last one in line to accept myself and since I don't really know many people where I live, it does basically come down to what I think of myself (which isn't much these days).
I'm getting used to a new med, too - so I'm thinking we might be making perfect sense with one another :)
poster:leeran
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