Posted by annabelle smith on November 17, 2010, at 21:54:44
In reply to Re: an eternity, posted by Solstice on November 17, 2010, at 21:39:18
Thank you, Solstice. This really helps me.
No, I wasn't talking about the therapist with whom I just terminated; I did feel some of this idealization with him too, but I am talking about the intense feelings that I feel toward my original (and now, current) therapist. Much of it seems to me to have to do with the re-evokation of an affective state, a place where my here-and-there jabs of longing, desire, glimpses of home, safety, self, and God are somehow culminated in an intense frenzy of energy and presence. That is actually what hurts, is ambiguous and scary. I know that I am safe here-- that is precisely, I think, the source of much of my anxiety. It seems like it is too good to be true, and I keep waiting for the terrible instant when I will realize that actually, it is too good to be true; that is, it is not true or real.
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