Posted by FindingMyDesire on November 6, 2008, at 22:23:07
In reply to Object Permanence -- Daisy and whoever else, posted by TherapyGirl on November 6, 2008, at 20:44:19
Hi TherapyGirl,
I am surfacing a bit after my biggest crisis ever. I don't have the good definition of object permanence that you seek, but I will tell you this:I read a journal entry I had written when I was in therapy with my last T - some 14 years ago - to my current T. It made me cry out loud to read it. It was an account towards the end of my therapy with her where she had apparently told me how much she cared about me, that our relationship was a significant one, and that we would always be connected - even if we didn't talk or see each other. That she would be in my life.
My current T was watching me read it with such care and love in her eyes. When I finished she said, "And she is still part of your life today."
Well, I emailed my old T. Every once in a while I have sent a card and on occasion heard back from her. But it has been awhile.
She emailed back. Turns out she has moved from where she was before - where I KNEW she WAS even though I didn't see her. I felt a pang. What?! She's MOVED? But she told me she had just been thinking of me a few weeks prior (which is interesting because that's when things really fell apart for me). And that brief email exchange just meant the world to me. I realize not so much because of some kind of connection we could have today, but that she really is connected to me - she is in my heart. Permanently.
Note sure if that helps, but it sounds like you have a very strong connection to your T. She will always be there for you - inside, if not close by physically.
FMD
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