Posted by Stellabystarlight on August 15, 2008, at 20:47:40
In reply to I am so confused and scared., posted by Amanda29 on August 15, 2008, at 19:31:56
Hi Amanda29,
I'm sorry...I know it's painful...
I also have a very strong transference with my T and fear termination. I used to call him only once every two weeks or so during panic attacks, but felt guilty even then, and he was nice about it. I wanted to stop the urge to call/see/email him between sessions because I felt so painfully out of control and I knew it would get worse over time.
One day, we decided to record my sessions to clarify what was said between us. Thank goodness we did this, because it ended up being a solution for my need to connect with him between sessions.
I listen to our sessions anytime I have panic attacks or separation anxiety, and it instantly calms me down. It's also been great for re-analyzing my sessions with a clear head, and getting an accurate perspective on myself and my T. The recordings have really helped me and my therapy.
If your T doesn't feel comfortable recording your sessions for whatever reason, you should ask him to make you a relaxation tape as others have suggested. It might really help you...
Hope things get better for you soon.
Stellabystarlight
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