Posted by TherapyGirl on October 28, 2007, at 14:50:19
In reply to Re: Please help... ***Possible Triggers*** » TherapyGirl, posted by Dinah on October 28, 2007, at 11:28:02
Thanks, Dinah. And first of all, I'm so sorry you know the place I'm in so intimately. I hate it for both of us.
Your suggestions are good ones (and very close to what T told me when she called me an hour or so ago). I'm going to go for a walk later and try to pound out the anxiety and get my breathing under control. I hate it when it feels like I can't get enough breath.
Tonight, I'm going the beer-flexeril route (with T's blessing). First thing tomorrow, I'll call my PCP and ask for a prescription for Xanax. I have to be a little careful about those kinds of drugs -- anything that messes with my brain chemistry can backfire in the worst ways. But I like that it's short-acting and doesn't have to be taken every day. So we'll see if that will get me through the worst of it.
I feel more numb right now, which is better than the overwhelming anxiety. If I can get through tonight, I'll have more tools at my disposal.
There is a trigger -- my ex, who I have remained friends with, is starting to see someone else and I believe has become sexually involved (or something close to it). I didn't think that would be this hard for me -- we broke up nearly 4 years ago and I'm the one who did the breaking up. But for some reason it has thrown me for a loop. It doesn't help that there is a child involved who I have no legal claim to. So the minute another party gets introduced, I'm afraid that my role with him will be more limited. And I can't stand the thought of that. I also think my hormones are wonky right now due to my gyn. issues.
T and I are going to work on it all and see where we get with it.
Thanks for the support, Dinah. You are a gem.
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