Posted by wishingstar on March 15, 2007, at 16:34:17
In reply to Re: ok, one more thing - anne » wishingstar, posted by TherapyGirl on March 14, 2007, at 19:55:27
Saw Ginny today. Not helpful. You all predicted it.. she didnt really "get it" from my email. Didnt offer any reassurance or comfort or validation really. Thats all I needed. Talked about the weight I've lost but nothing about WHY I'm not eating. Just why it's a bad idea. I already knew it was a bad idea. I wanted you to hear me.
I tried to tell her I was trying. The email was painfully honest. I wanted her to get that. I guess she didnt. She just said "but we cant do emails every week". Well no kidding. But I'm TRYING.. dont you see that?
I was starting to consider that restricting was a bad idea after seeing Laurie yesterday. I guess I felt like I was heard enough that I didnt need to. But today, forget it. I'm NOT stopping. I'm not eating. I'm done. I WILL hit xxxx (blocked because it could be a trigger) pounds and I dont care what anyone else thinks. At least I can do that.
She encouraged me again to look at finding other therapists. She said she'd consulted with a colleague and they agreed that if I wont talk, theres nothing she can do for me. Thats true. Oh well. I tried.
Not sure if I'll continue posting here or not. Might take a long break. I dont feel like I fit in here right now for the most part. That isnt an attempt to get attention or reassurance, so pelase dont feel like you need to comment on it. It's just the truth.
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