Posted by wishingstar on February 15, 2007, at 23:12:58
Heres the email I just sent to Ginny:
"Hi Ginny,
I've done some thinking (whats new?) and I think I need a break from therapy, for my sake and for yours. I'm starting to feel the same way I did in partial with Randy the second time around. If I'm not willing to do what I need to do to improve, then there's no sense in wasting either of our time right now. Nothing is going to change on its own and I guess I'm just not willing, for whatever reason, to do the things I should be doing. I'm aware that I'm choosing my own destiny here, but I just cant (or wont) do the things you want me to do. I guess I need to take some time and come back when I'm ready to actually try to help myself.
I'll still come on Monday and we can talk then I guess."She pushed WAY too hard today and I'm just done. It's not just because of today - I just believe what I wrote. If I'm not willing to help myself, then I'm wasting my time and her time and there's no reason to keep coming.
Still planning to go on Monday.
I feel terrible. Stared at the wall for an hour tonight. Cried into a teddy bear. I'm not a teddy bear kind of person. I'm just so tired.
poster:wishingstar
thread:733206
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20070215/msgs/733206.html