Posted by ElaineM on February 7, 2007, at 23:00:41
In reply to Re: The Next big Step :-) = update, posted by widget on February 7, 2007, at 21:08:04
>>>>>>>But, how about you? Is there another therapist to help you?
I've confided in several other different types of "helping professionals". The responses varied. Two, I had to stop seeing cause I graduated. One told me I kinda didn't want to talk to her about it (she couldn't hear it), and that I wasn't an appropriate candidate to meet with anyone else there. ANd one heard everything but said that her agency was full with a huge wait-list. Finally told (in a way) my old T. But because I'm not eligible to be a client, she can only see me a few times a year (though she's supportive when she has time, over email). It's very hard to find a balance between saying enough so that I don't have to deal with the confusion alone, but censored enough that I don't give away his identity. And that's HARD where I am. So that's the long and short of that question ;-)
>>>>>>I have such strong feelings for my psychiatrist and I am constantly pushing his boundaries.
That's entirely normal. (just as, NOT having such an intense reacton, is also normal) But I've learned it can be common.
>>>>>>...I probably should not have said I was jealous of you; you are obviously wrestling with this big time.
Not at all. I *am* wrestling with this, but always say what you're thinking (at least to me) :) Infact, I had also felt that I worded my post too much like a "warning/order", or something like that, and I worried that it may seem to invalidate or condemn the feelings you have for your pdoc -- which wasn't my intention.....So no worries all around.
>>>>>>>You are undoubtably right that you would not wish this upon any other woman.
I wouldn't wish all the feelings and thoughts, confusion and ambivalence and isolation, that have sprung from this, on another man or woman -- that's all. [not to say I don't get positive stuff from T too]
>>>>>>>I know that he is "safe" for better or worse, though, and I still cannot help pursuing him, rather like Wiley Coyote and the Road Runner. If I actually "caught" him, I don't know what I would do.
That's okay. It's your "job" to describe your feelings and thoughts as best you can. And it's his job to remain "impervious to your attempts" at "catching" him. He must be really experienced, and care about your psychological wellbeing alot to protect you that way. :') It sounds like you have a good T Widget.
blove, El
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