Posted by ElaineM on February 13, 2007, at 15:25:56
In reply to Re: Not good ***trig SI » ElaineM, posted by muffled on February 12, 2007, at 22:16:54
>>What happened? You couldn't get in to see the other T?
Sorry I know I'm confusing. T was seeing if he could get me into the roster of one of his physician friends. So he could communicate with him without professional pretenses and bureaucracy, and waittimes, and info delays, etc. But he talked to his friend and it's not possible. :""(
The letter he wrote was to the doc I have now. i got word he spoke to her on the phone today and she's not interested in pursuing my case any further (but she will still see me if I have a cold or need shots or something). No thanks. So I spent the whole day crying. Hope is like SI - except more painful. hate myself. miss my family that's gone :"( don't even care about my health anymore. trying pills for nothing. going to scary appointments. for nothing. She told him that she had no further ideas on how to proceed, but also didn't see the point in making a referral to someone else for consultation. No one cares about being helpful, or patient's best interest, or alleviating pain, only in being "right" and finishing their part. Pass the puck, or a blind eye. that's all.
>>>>Do I seem evil to you?
You don't seem ugly to me.No you don't seem that way at all to me. thanks for seeing me in a better light than I see myself. :(
Just SO not good right now.
>>>You special to me OK?
(((muff))) I'll try to hold that with me. It's hard though. everything is so hard. hurts to try anymore you know.
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