Posted by Daisym on October 1, 2006, at 23:36:29
In reply to Re: I Need some help, but be gentle..., posted by Fallsfall on October 1, 2006, at 8:44:32
Sorry that I abandoned this thread. It got too painful for awhile.
We've talked a lot this past week about how much abandonment there has been in my life and how huge this feeling was when the abuse started, even though no one physically left. I was just suddenly all alone in a world that had tilted. So I've been protecting myself, not letting my therapist close to me, and not feeling him either. He says we just keep working on it, we keep talking about it.
I told him that I've been afraid of him lately -- at least my younger parts are. He said he can understand that, he isn't offended, but he promises that I won't ever have to offer sex to get him to stay. And we talked about touch a lot this week -- it is such a double-edge sword! How great would it be to feel wrapped up and protected? How terrifying would it feel to be wrapped up and vulnerable?
Have I said, "therapy is hard?" It is, it is, it is!!!
thanks for the support and replies.
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