Posted by ElaineM on August 16, 2006, at 21:33:57
In reply to Re: Not so low :-) but with questions » ElaineM, posted by muffled on August 15, 2006, at 23:18:29
((((Muffy)))) You make me feel like I'm not cr@p for a minute. You are so kind and friendly. I hope I can always be just as nice back to you.
I don't feel badgered about my T though. I know people are trying to help me. And I know I'm pretty dense -- I need people drilling into me what's wrong, and risky or dangerous all the time. I don't often recognize bad situations -- my brain is just never turned on and I'm used to going with the flow. I don't like questioning, or demanding, or challenging. I always prefer to just float along -- it's easier.
If anything, I worry about my posts hurting others, or making people angry or hate me. I don't want any more people in the world hating me. That's all. I don't think anyone on here has ever sounded like they're hastling me (or anyone) or cruel, or mean though. And I doubt any of you would hate either -- it's just always been one of my biggest fears. I think I just want somebody to be caring about, and for, me right now soooo much. I want a friend who will talk to me like I'm an equal. I want the husband I'm never gonna have now. I want a family that loves me. I want a doctor who will fix my body. I want anybody to fix my heart. It is hard for me to not be grateful that I have someone (whatever role he is) at all. Is a "bad T" better than nobody at all?
Muffy, I care about you alot :-)
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