Posted by ElaineM on August 17, 2006, at 12:56:16
In reply to Re: sunnydays, posted by sunnydays on August 17, 2006, at 8:37:08
I'm sorry I've been such a basket-case poster the past few days. I got a call yesturday saying that one of my specialists just got the results in from a test that was performed just last week and that he NEEDED to see me the next morning (as in today). So I've been worried out of my mind -- it's not too often that appointments with specialists get bumped up two weeks for no reason. I feared that his fears were proved true. But it came back negative. He had some other ideas about what it is, but none as immediately tragic as what he had been looking for.
I was just so worried that yet another condition was going to be thrown on top of me. As well as on top of the dental/sinus stuff. I'm grateful for this small piece of good news. I still have the same diagnosis as a day ago, but I'm always so discouraged and effected by it that I tend to forget some of the ways that it could be worse. Like, I could be a little kid with the same thing. And this thing he thinks he's ruled out was one of those "horribly worse" things. I have a repeat procedure at the end of September to be sure. I'm never usually angry (and it's hard to be too mad when the news turned out to be okay) but I think I hate his receptionist for choosing her wording so poorly. She could've said, We can move up your follow-up earlier if you like. I still hate her a bit for making me panic -- she should know that people would be on the edge waiting.
Anyways, that's why I didn't even get to confront my T like I had planned to. The phone call happened an hour after I made that "post of intent". We just tried to stop my crying and collect myself enough to get there this morning. I'll need some time to decompress.
My face is pounding -- I'm exhausted. I felt like I should thank you guys. It doesn't make sense - it's not like you did anything, or that you're the doctor. Maybe I just felt like you were with me. Or at least that someone may still have talked to me if I had this.
((((((Babblers)))))))
ELps. I'm glad you weren't offended Sunny, though I'm sorry you're depressed yourself. extra hugs.
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