Posted by ElaineM on August 2, 2006, at 20:59:33
In reply to Re: Why has this happened now? ***trigger, posted by Karolina on August 1, 2006, at 22:36:43
Thanks Karolina: I know what you mean about needing to be "outside the limits" sometimes. I'm used to daily emails too. I hope your T contacts you. When I thought I wasn't going to hear from mine I just kept telling myself that he was busy having a great, relaxing time -- and I'd want him to have that, cause he deserves it. Especially dealing with me constantly ;-)
I feel silly needing support from you all with my teeth, but I'm really scared about all of it. I had a bad reaction to the novocaine the first time. Now I'm not even getting it done by a specialist -- plain old dentist said he'd try it and charge less. So, I don't have much of a choice. I'm really dreading Friday - and that's just one of them!! My cardiologist said that I don't have to be so gentle but I have a hard time breathing tipped upsidedown, and I faint (or close to it) every time I'm raised from a procedure. I'm worried something will happen. I wish it was already Saturday and I was posting on here that everything went well. So scared.
I've been really out of it today. I've got something to look after tomorrow that I'm kinda dreading too. It just seems like there is never an end to all the stuff happening to me.
Keep in touch though about how you're coping without your T. Thanks for thinking of me.
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I had one small good thing happen today too. (two things in a row kind of makes me feel like something terrible is just around the corner) I had emailed my ladyDoctor (who I'm done with) one night after posting here. I wasn't doing well and kinda desperate. I didn't think she'd be able to respond but still keep checking constantly, hoping that she would.
Today, I got a reply from her! It was really short, but she was nice. (I miss her so much) At the end though she threw in the line about, "....email is not appropriate...not confidential...better saved for face to face...". I tried to not let it hurt because I understand why she had to say it. I get it, but it still stung a little. I didn't let it take away from the niceness of the whole gesture though. She really didn't have to respond at all.
So I've just been using that to get through the day. Re-reading it like a little girl. Oh well. I'll take any small comfort I can get. And I'm so scared and sore and dizzy that I don't care how I find some relief. I wish I was with any of you. I want you all to come with me on Friday =:::(
hugs for everyone, EL
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