Posted by ElaineM on July 31, 2006, at 13:10:54
In reply to Re: Why has this happened now? ***trigger » ElaineM, posted by canadagirl on July 30, 2006, at 23:32:36
Thankyou CGirl: It helps to hear support. Usually all I have is my own negative self-talk. It's hard when you are alone -- you forget what your own voice sounds like. You forget what others voices sound like. And the less you hear from others, the louder your head gets. I'm only fully realizing how much my daily existence depends on my T.
Plus, I appreciate being able to write on here as a destraction. It doesn't help all the time -- but sometimes it's enough to make "light pain" days more tolerable.
I didn't SI last night. It's hard feeling so bad, but I feel like I've done it alot lately. Though I think the last time was the day my ladydoctor didn't show up -- I can't remember, but it looks as though it's relatively old. I don't know why I care but I feel like I'm really trying to avoid doing more damage. It's so hard moving through each day. I can't stand it.
I didn't go to the ER cause I'm afraid. I'd rather hold out till the last minute. And I'm supposed to see my dentist on Friday, though that seems too far away.
thank you for thinking of me though,
EL
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