Posted by gardenergirl on April 4, 2006, at 17:27:35
In reply to Re: More explanation, posted by Daisym on April 4, 2006, at 15:31:55
Daisy,
First, I definitely relate to your abandoning threads thing. I feel I'm doing something similar. For me, it's sort of like I need to say some things, but I don't really have the emotional energy to sustain a dialog about them. I guess. I'm not quite sure how that fits in with the idea that I'm doing better, though.And about needing to deal with things alone...when I read your posts in this thread, I had a feeling that what you are feeling seems really really authentic. It's hard for me to put this into words, because it's more of a feeling and non-verbal concept for me, but I'll try.
When I get to a really authentic place, there's sort of a feeling of strength in that, even if the feelings themselves are painful, scary, or in some other way "negative". I guess it feels like empowerment in some way to finally feel that fit between your head and your heart so purely. I may be way offbase, but your words remind me of that feeling.
And that feeling is personal. It's your own truth and authenticity. I think others can see it and resonate with it perhaps, but it's just uniquely YOURS. I don't quite no how else to say it, but it makes a certain sense to me that you would feel moved to go forward at this point alone.
I may be wrong. But I don't see moving forward "alone" as necessarily a bad thing. Ultimately, I think it's really only within ourselves that growth, healing, etc. occurs. But I think it's also important to know that others are still present for you. Your journey may be inside at this time, but the connections you have to those who love you will not go away. You don't have to talk to us or do anything for us, but we will be here, loving you and standing up with you anyway, ready to offer an oasis when needed.
If nothing else is on target, please know that I care. I always will.
((((Daisy))))
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