Posted by pegasus on April 5, 2006, at 10:14:24
In reply to Re: Time for a Pause » pegasus, posted by Daisym on April 4, 2006, at 18:51:45
"This is a do as I say, not as I do moment."
Yes, I understand. :) You're right, it wasn't fair. ;)
I just wanted to add that I'm getting so much out of this particular thread. One one hand I can relate to your struggle, and on the other I think sometimes I can be so opposite. So I'm empathizing and learning at the same time. I think it's helping me open up my own feelings and perceptions in a way that I need.
Your struggle is so bittersweet. It's good work that you're doing. I see you pushing so hard at such rock solid walls, and little chips are falling off of them. I want to cheer when I see that. You're so brave and articulate and persistent, even when you're pulling back and getting scared. (Yeah, you can be brave in being scared.)
And then, it's so painful that I want to cry for you. Why can't the dang wall just crumble already?
Similarly, I think it's so sweet that you want to protect everyone around you from pain. So many people push their stuff outside themselves without being able to think about the people in their environment (I'm like this a lot, I think). And then I see how much your effort and concern about others makes your struggle harder and more painful.
I don't know what I'm trying to say here. One part of it is that I want you to please keep letting us into your struggle, as long as it is helpful to you. It's definitely been helpful to me to know about it.
hugs
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