Posted by annierose on April 4, 2006, at 15:52:58
In reply to Re: More explanation, posted by Daisym on April 4, 2006, at 15:31:55
No Daisy, I don't think you are mad at him. But I do think all those feelings of rage are coming out. And in the past, your brain has associated love with pain. The people that were suppose to love you with all their hearts, protect you from harms way, didn't.
I identify so much with the feelings you describe. I even wrote to Falls last night that I hate that my T is being so darn nice, so kind and sweet. I hate her for that. It's not what we expect, the patience, the kindness, the love.
Logically, that makes no sense. But our brains work in mysterious ways. We need to untangle that web, destroy those monsters.
His vacation??!?!?! Oh Daisy, I know it seems like a mountain to get over. Take each day at a time. Try not to think too far out. I won't be around either (if it's Easter week); I wish I could be a source of support. I liked the image of dumping all my stuff on my T's lap, holding it for me until she returns.
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