Posted by mair on February 22, 2006, at 12:52:55
In reply to Re: Can Anyone Relate to This? » mair, posted by Daisym on February 21, 2006, at 21:13:27
Has your T ever expressed an opinion about whether he thinks you're participation here is a good thing or bad thing? (on balance of course) My T said the other day that one of her concerns about my participation was just the issue I've raised - that I'd set myself up to compare myself unfavorably with others. Either I'm misunderstanding her point or she's engaged in revisionist history, because I don't ever recall her saying this and from time to time we've talked alot about the Babbles. She has expressed concern before that sometimes I would process things on Babble that I would then not feel I had to process with her, so she would be missing out on issues of importance. I think she also felt sometimes that after working through things on Babble, she would get the very sanitized expurgated version. She's probably right but I do that with or without Babble. I've never really talked to her about much that I haven't tried to explain to myself first.
But what you're saying is true too. Processing things on Babble makes it easier for me to raise them with her at all - the sanitized version is probably better than no version.
I have no trouble seeing the value of Babble, and as even my T observed, Babble is the only place, outside of therapy, where I can discuss depression with people who really understand what I'm talking about.
But the flip side about Babble is true also. I'm more than a little awestruck by the enormity to what some people here have had to deal with, and by the relationships they've forged with their therapists, and I do feel ashamed that I'm such a slow study.
PS: you realize don't you, that in the world of people addressing the issues you're trying to address, you've actually been in therapy for a very short period of time?