Posted by AuntieMel on December 9, 2005, at 10:46:31
In reply to Rough again, again with the Survivor stuff, posted by Racer on December 8, 2005, at 13:34:33
Funny. I used to feel a lot of the same things.
"But wait! I didn't survive, I'm damaged, can't you see!"
mixed with
"I really want to be as strong as you think I was and I feel like I'll let you down if I don't act that way!!!! I feel like such a loser!!"
I had a need (emotional and otherwise) to play the strong Cat Ballou they'll-never-see-me-cry-part all my life. It's really hard to let that facade drop and admit I'm human, even though I know I'm paying this guy a whole lot of money just for that reason. In a lot of ways I identify with the facade and don't even want to admit to myself I'm human.
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