Posted by Damos on October 23, 2005, at 18:09:29
In reply to Re: Anybody else have very *trigger* » Damos, posted by fairywings on October 21, 2005, at 8:50:33
> I find that really interesting Damos, what kind of therapies have you done? I've done trigger point massage, and been to an alt. doctor, but that's it. No bodyworks.
I've tried all kinds of stuff mostly under the banner of kinesiology and had all kinds of experiences. I find Reiki really good for me too. Here's the link for the energetic healer I see and it'll give you some idea of the stuff I do. I just depends on how I'm feeling and what I think I need as to what we do. What's good is if we're taling about something she'll always ask if I want to work on it specifically. I've done the EFT too and that seemed to help. Something else I found really good were Australian Bush Flower Essences. As soon as I took the first few drops I knew I had the right combination. I've also found that Tai Chi and Qigong exercises are good for me too.
http://www.healingenergy.com.au
I think the biggest thing with Alison is that she is really intuitive. Like I'll have been chewing something over for days (like whether I should start Tai Chi) and walk in and she'll say things like "you know I think Tai Chi would be really good for you" even though we've never even spoken about it. The same thing happened with the flower essences and some other things.
After some of the heavy sessions I've felt terrible for a couple of days and then better once the release of stuff has happened.
I'm still not good at it at all, and still find that I have no idea how to accept, express and respond to lots of stuff but at least I'm trying now.> I'm so sorry you went through all of this (((((Damos)))))). It's so incredibly painful. I'm glad you felt lighter after you wrote and then were able to cry. Do you think your depression is tied up in the miscarriage?
Thanks FW, my heart goes out to you and Antigua. Knowing how much hurt there was for me I can only begin to imagine how much hurt there is any woman who suffers a miscarriage. (((((Fairwings, Antigua, everyone who's been through it)))))
Once I finally admitted there was a problem I was able to look back and could clearly see that my depression became a real problem in my early teens. Was probably there long before that but that was when I could sense things weren't quite right. This miscarriage and the aftermath led to my only really serious attempt at suicide. What's worse is that I still only just beginning to understand the ramifications it's had/still has on the rest of my life.
I think the day I decided to get help I decided to stop pretending for others benefit. To Antigua's point I've also found being upfront about my stuff has been really helpful too. It's helped me sort out who's who too. There are some who make being the way you are okay and really help in all kinds of ways.
My anger is mostly from other stuff like, "Can't you see how much that hurts me." etc and the frustration with myself for messing stuff up over and over.
Warmest wishes,
Damos
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