Posted by AuntieMel on August 3, 2005, at 11:16:36
In reply to I'm So Done!!! (trigger), posted by LadyBug on August 2, 2005, at 16:04:44
"I could have gone through life without therapy and not had to dig into the sadness of what I didn't get as a child. I could have left it buried down there and functioned just fine. "
I did that for years, and I functioned just fine. But then I got to a breaking point where I lost all function.
For me at least that many years of burying was just a bandaid. Granted it was a bandaid I was moderately happy with and between it and a few beers every night I wasn't miserable.
Sometimes I think I should just chuck it and go back to the old me. But then I remember that I *did* have a breaking point and I don't want to go there again.
So I suffer through therapy. It's been a really long process because I don't trust easily. I'd just about rather have a limb amputated than talk about anything personal. Even now I can go for weeks and not bring up anything "deep."
But I am seeing progress. Slow progress, but progress just the same.
poster:AuntieMel
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