Posted by LadyBug on August 2, 2005, at 16:04:44
I just got home from my therapy session. I can't even explain what went wrong except the fact that I left in so much pain and sadness that I never want to go back!!!!!
I didn't schedule another appointment. I couldn't bring myself to that point. I dont care if I ever go back!!! I went out to my car and said to myself outloud, "**** You, **** Therapy, I'M DONE!!!"
I'm not going to call my T. and give her what she wants, that would be to come back and feel bad somemore, or add money to her pocketbook, or work it out as she says. I come away feeling like crap so much of the time I wonder how I ever say this has helped me!! I know she is a good person. But this therapy crap is for the birds sometimes. It has pulled on my heart strings to the point I can't do it anymore!! Help me out of my insanity!!! The little girl inside of me is falling apart. I thought I learned how to stay put together, but I've slipped back to point A.
Dang I wish I'd never started therapy or never met my therapist!! I'm so frustraed with the process and the dumb boundaries and the head games!! I'm sick of trying to analyze every breath I take!
I'm so done!!!
I've learned so much since finding this group a few months ago. I can relate to some of everthing you all write about. This has been awesome.
This process is so dang hard and where are the rewards?????? Right now, I don't think they're any to be had!! I could have gone through life without therapy and not had to dig into the sadness of what I didn't get as a child. I could have left it buried down there and functioned just fine. Therapy damage, I think I've been damaged!
I Hate Therapy! I hate what it's made me feel like!!! I can't stand the pain and sadness I feel. And no one understands exept maybe you guys and maybe my therapist and I'm dang sure not calling her!!!!
Sorry for being in such a crappy place! I don't like feeling negative! BUT I'M SO DONE!!!
LadyBug
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