Posted by cricket on August 1, 2005, at 16:23:05
In reply to therapy today..., posted by alexandra_k on July 31, 2005, at 20:35:32
Hi Alex,
I know how hard it is. I know the going round and round.
I quite literally haven't talked about my childhood for years in therapy. Just couldn't go there. Couldn't remember. Couldn't function when I did remember. So now we've backed off and I wonder if we'll ever get back there.
Talked about voices, let them talk some, but I always back off of that too and we go back to the silence.
Maybe that's just the way it is.
My mother never wanted me either. She was 17 when I was born, still in highschool, not married. I was such a source of shame that she rejected me from birth.
She says, "You were so ugly I couldn't stand to look at you. I couldn't even think of a name for you. A nurse in the hospital named you." :(
I never met my father.
Never knew who he was.
My mother said "if you were a boy, he would have wanted to meet you."Ugh. I guess we have a lot of the same issues.
It sounds like your T is willing to go round and round with you, as mine is too, no matter how many times I try to push him off the carousel :)
Alex, you are such a great help to me and so many others. I hope you get all the hugs you need.
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