Posted by alexandra_k on July 31, 2005, at 23:58:33
In reply to Re: therapy today... » alexandra_k, posted by daisym on July 31, 2005, at 22:28:08
Hey Daisy,
>I guess you are going to have to accept that some parts of you are scared and other parts need comfort. Take it slow like you said.
yeah. except that f*cking terrified captures it better... i think i remember... i think i remember some stuff around talking about this stuff with a female t before. i ended up dissociating a lot in sessions. used to curl up into a ball and sit there... apparantly someone would have to carry me out of the room and put me in the staff tearoom or something for a couple hours till i snapped out of it... i remember that now. just a bit. yeah, i will tell her that i can't talk about this yet. on the upside we did talk about it a little and im okay. didn't go anywhere. so i guess that means that i am getting a bit better :-) still... must remember not to push so hard. its just hard. its just hard for rational me who finds this all so very silly... but i need to be nice to myself.
and yeah. comfort. she gives great hugs. i wish she would just hold me... but then i don't know that that would work... and i wonder about what i might want from her next... and about whether there might be a slippery slope and i think that probably isn't such a good idea... but then i'm finding it hard to feel attached to her too. i think thats why she has been alright about giving me hugs. because she has been trying to get me a bit more attached to her. i guess it has worked too. just a little... but yeah. comfort.
but i've still got my arms firmly around your neck, remember???
(see im weightless so im no trouble)
:-)
> Keep posting here. And if you are uncomfortable with the possibility of her reading her, ask her not to. I'm sure she will understand and respect your privacy.yes. i think i might ask her not to. i don't think she'd break that. or if she did then she wouldn't tell me! LOL! still... that would be a relief. i talk about things here that there is NO WAY i could discuss with anyone IRL.
you take care too.
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