Posted by gardenergirl on February 16, 2005, at 15:26:15
Okay, today's session was fairly disjointed, but what my T managed to put together from all the pieces was that I seem to have an intense fear of aggressive and sexual urges. Think thanatos and hmm, what was that other drive? Sex and death.
I actually could feel myself being blocked today when it came to something related to aggression. I just kind of stared into space thinking nothing and trying not to feel. I told him this, and he could tell, too.
I suspect it might be related, at least in part, to feeling like "good girls" don't have these feelings. But I'm really clueless, because for the aggression part, I really can't even conceive of me being aggressive or attacking someone forcefully. I can't even picture it. I can't imagine how it would feel other than completely foreign to me. Major block. And it's not that I think I *should* develop the ability to go out and attack folks, but I think you get the issue. I know from experience I tend to be a "freezer" when it comes to threats. I don't like that about myself, but I know it to be true of me.
Anyone else have issues with this? Thoughts? Comments? Questions? Complaints? (oops, got carried away).
Thanks,
gg
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