Posted by gardenergirl on February 19, 2005, at 10:13:03
In reply to Re: Freud anyone?, posted by alexandra_k on February 17, 2005, at 0:23:59
> So I guess I am a bit phobic of the strong emotions in general.
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> Are they both about being afraid of losing control?
Good question. I suppose it could be. I do wonder, now that you talk about how strong both these emotions are or at least can be, if it's my emotional sensitivity that is part of it. Because what may feel like a 50 percent intense emotion to someone else feels like 75 or higher to me a lot of the time. And one can only take so much intensity. My T is only now really understanding this about me. It's exhausting sometimes.But I remember a time when I got very very angry with my ex-fiance. I started screaming at him and throwing my shoes at him. Not really that horrible, no harm no foul, right? But it was so foreign to my sense of self, it scared me and appalled me. I HATED that he "brought that out in me." Of course, now I can see that he could not bring something out that was not always there. But yuck. Not the way I typically behave. I am a mostly proper lady. (cept when I sit cross-legged on top of the desk...I like to perch).
Ugh. Why is this so hard and complex?
gg
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