Posted by Dinah on January 29, 2005, at 12:55:29
In reply to (((Dinah))), My fault I guess......?, posted by 64bowtie on January 29, 2005, at 11:06:03
I don't think my life is terrible, or that I deserve a better life. I have a great life, and I'm very fortunate.
What I wish for myself is to have the guts to leave situations that, however attractive they are in some ways, are bad for my health or my integrity or in some cases, my wallet. To have the guts to do what I know is right for me. But I don't, and knowing it's right doesn't make it something I can do. Ergo spineless.
I am complaining, but not about externals. I'm complaining about internals. I would, of course, prefer changing them. But if I could do that I wouldn't be complaining about my inability to change the things in my life I should change, which is the heart of what I'm complaining about.
Yes, I should. Now what?
poster:Dinah
thread:449151
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20050129/msgs/449745.html