Posted by Daisym on November 24, 2004, at 23:54:52
In reply to Re: I think I'm losing it a little, posted by gardenergirl on November 24, 2004, at 1:23:10
<<<I'm wondering if the feelings of loss you are encountering now might actually be grieving for what might have been/never was? I know when I get exposure to something that I needed but didn't get as a child, it's always a powerful feeling for me. Poignant, because it reminds me of the void. Perhaps you are grieving that void or loss versus experiencing it more statically?
>>>>I think you are completely right. We've recently talked about grief and the fact that I'm most likely grieving, not necessarily depressed, a lot of the time. And there are so many reminders of what didn't happen when I was a child, as well as what did. My therapist helps me feel what could have been possible and it makes me so sad...I'll never get it back, that opportunity to be whole.I asked him today if he needed a break from me, if we needed a break from each other. Perhaps the disconnect was from too much. He just shook his head and said *I* might need a break from the hard stuff, but *we* needed to stay connected as much as possible. And *I* shouldn't worry about *his* needs -- that was his job. But things are a little better tonight, after a tough session and a series of phone calls back and forth.
Thanks for your support, as always.
Hugs,
Daisy
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