Posted by B2chica on July 7, 2004, at 10:53:21
In reply to Re: Homework - A tough one., posted by shadows721 on July 1, 2004, at 22:27:57
>>I have been told the gammit. "Read the Bible, Shadows." "Are you sure you are remembering this right, Shadows?"... "We watched you, this couldn't have happened." "You think your childhood was bad, I saw X on tv today."
Although slightly different experiences for me, EVERYTHING you say above is EXACTLY what i imagine people saying to me if i ever talk.
-it's my nightmare said aloud.>>As far as putting it behind you thing, I feel it is definately apart of who I am today...can stuff it down, drown in drugs/alcohol, starve it, eat it, cut it, keep busy, hide in a belief system, and run from it, but that works temporarily.
-YEP! maybe right about this temp thing but it is working for me (sort of) right now...that's ok right? My T is trying to get me to stop cutting and keeps talking about it but he thought that what i talked about friday was my (1)issue. HA-i've got many, many more and i am NOT ready to STOP!!!!
>>We can't stop flashbacks. We can't stop remembering. This is a condition that has been set in motion. It can't really be put back down permanantly. It will just pop right back up. It usually pops up when we aren't expecting it anyway.SHadows, i read this and you have me in tears. PLEASE tell me it's not true. I'm fighting these damn visuals that make me cringe and literally close my eyes and push back cuz i want to get away from them...i've done this infront of a few people now and i cover with excuses but PLEASE...i've GOT TO STOP THESE memory visuals crap things!!!
> Now, I think. To heck with what anyone thinks, NO ONE was there for me then. But, I will sure heck be there for me today.D@mn Straight!!!!!!
b2c.
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