Posted by daisym on June 20, 2004, at 14:56:20
In reply to Re: Increased therapy making me worse (I think), posted by lucy stone on June 20, 2004, at 11:44:42
It won't help that I'm going to tell you that this is supposed to happen...but it is. You are feeling old feelings in the here and now and it is confusing and disorienting. You are experiencing what I believe they call the "crisis phase" on the path to healing. I've been there. It is hell. Increasing your sessions is getting you the results you want, you are letting the FEELINGS out and you aren't so in charge of everything.
However, I couldn't, didn't make progress until I actually let my Therapist take care of me when I was in this melt down phase. (metaphorically speaking, of course) You are still protecting your T -- I know you know what he is going through but it doesn't mean he can't do his job and lend you some strength. Dinah is right, just because you suggested it doesn't mean you aren't allowed to say, "this is hard and I need some help managing the feelings." For me, I developed an online friendship with someone I could be completely honest with about the feelings sessions were creating and she helps me process them. We talk almost every day, helping each other. I think you might need someone to do this with. It really does help between sessions.
I also had (have) a ton of contact with my Therapist. This isn't always possible. And I've (gasp) taken time off work or worked at home when it was really bad.
It cycles out...it will ease off. But the more you isolate yourself the longer that takes. FORCE yourself to be with people, watch movies, write, go to the park, color with your son. Distraction really is the key here.
Father's Day brings up painful memories for so many of us. I'm sorry you are feeling it so acutely. Keep writing if it helps.
I'm thinking about you.
DaisyDid you ever get "Courage to Heal"? When I feel really horrible I reread the pages on crisis. It helps to know that this is something a lot of people go through.
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