Posted by 64bowtie on May 12, 2004, at 3:41:12
In reply to Re: Are you sure...?, posted by firenrain on May 12, 2004, at 0:45:51
> Sorry for the spiteful tone in my last post. I do realize that you have asked a question in your first post ,
<<< thanks, I mean that, thanks.> but you also ask where and how the pain occurs, implying that you do not know how it feels...
<<< I know pain, it was a rhetorical (mistake, apparently) question.> When you asked "If I want to get well" it hit an even deeper nerve...
<<< this question is not rhetorical... Do you want to get well?> So here's my attempt to answer your question. I went for 5 years without antidep I too thought I was well. My denial continued until I was in a catatonic psychosis. I just wished that someone could get in my head for one day when I am so deeply depressed. My biggest fear is that I am not trying hard enough or that I have somehow brought this on myself.
<<< I wish it were different for you.> The self loathing chatter is saying things
<<< When I learned to suspend my beliefs until I could decide which beliefs were really mine and which ones were induced by someone else from the outside, I started hearing only one voice; me, mine! No social blackmail, no voices.Rod
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