Posted by alexandra_k on February 4, 2004, at 3:09:31
In reply to Re: Research » fallsfall, posted by gardenergirl on February 3, 2004, at 22:31:13
Wow ((((((guys))))).
I haven't had this discussion with anyone before but I have also done the whole research thing in trying to figure out what is wrong with me and what I need to get better. I didn't know anybody else did this.... But, sure, of course they do!
I got so mad with people assuming that I wanted someone to just come along and rescue me (perils of BPD diagnosis) - and in reading that this is a 'typical' symptom I am careful to emphasise that I am positvely doing all I can to help myself. (just need a little help sometimes people.. I can read the book but unfortunately I can't be my own therapist.). This has helped improve my relationship with clinicians immensely to emphasise this.
So I read to try to understand what is wrong. I'll admit that sometimes this helps as when I relate to stuff, and sometimes it hurts as when theorists assume stuff. Also reading about therapies is a mixed blessing but it is beautiful when you read about a technique and grimice 'that'll never work on me' and then someone does it so beautifully you find yourself 'falling for it' even though you 'know better'.
I used to wonder whether I was getting a little bit obsessive with the research... it was interfering with my studies and so I figured that the best thing for me to do was to integrate it and write on philosophy of psychology / psychopathology. Have written stuff and am hoping for publications this year (touch wood). Hopefully I can do something useful with respect to re-conceptualising disorders in a way that will reduce stigma and help clinicians feel empowered to help... Also the theorietical basis of treatments (often quite dodgey..) hopefully I can use my experiences and hurts to help others and help the system improve rather than just running it down..
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