Posted by likelife on November 17, 2002, at 15:11:30
In reply to Re: feel like I'm drowning, posted by Miller on November 15, 2002, at 8:15:46
Miller,
Thank you first for giving me some kind of hope.
I have tried to kill myself, and have (obviously) failed, and I thought that I would never get over the humiliation of it. Like you, I have been thinking about the situation a lot, and know that if I do decide to kill myself, I also need to be certain that it will not fail. Love for my husband, and from my husband has been what has kept me going for a long time. I have had the thought that if I killed myself, I would be making life easier for him, as he would not have to deal with my hysterics and constant bad mood. But I know that in reality, killing myself would be a very cruel thing to do to him, and so I don't. But in the meantime, I wonder if I will be able to make it through a life that requires so much effort.
It is helpful to know that you and others share my feelings and struggles. Somehow I hope we can all make it a little better for each other.
poster:likelife
thread:1549
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