Posted by Lorelai on October 8, 2002, at 23:14:46
In reply to Re: just wanted to wish you luck » Lorelai, posted by terramiller on October 8, 2002, at 22:52:26
> hope i'm not butting in here.... but i wanted to suggest that you ask alice what she wants to do... which i bet you already have. but in case you haven't.... i bet you alice knows who you can trust and who you can't. and i bet you that if alice doesn't trust the therapist, there's no way that you are going to go deep. if they can't win over alice, forget it. just a thought. because it sounds like alice is pretty good at her job of taking care of you and she's going to keep doing that job until she feels like someone more trustworthy can step in and help. it's a beautiful thing when someone inside who helps us decides the therapist knows what he's doing and can be trusted.... then that one who has been so helpful finally gets the rest they need. could be alice wants to rest, too. could be alice has some things she wants to talk about but she's waiting until she can find the right therapist to tell.
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> take care.
> terra
No, you're not butting in (: I appreciate the comments very much! And I have to agree that it's going to take finding someone very trustworthy/comfortable. alice and I had an argument over finally telling Doc S and then being "dumped" for this other shrink. But it was ME who was pissed at alice. I told her she'd really done it now. So now I'm looking at that and I realize it's alice that wants to be discovered. I've always been the one to want her hidden from the world. Even so, at this point, alice is a little leery. What's she want to do? I guess the best word is she's ambivalent. She has days where she wants the pdocs to leave well enough alone, but then something else has been going on (memory glitches that interfere with my life in a more damaging way), so she seems more open to this process. Still, there are certain things she/I refuse to talk about. I know this is maybe detrimental to therapy, but I don't WANT to remember certain things, yet I do remember them, at least I sort of remember things in a haze (weird stuff from childhood), yet I will NOT talk to anyone about them. I can't bring myself to. So then I feel guilty about that, like I'm hiding something that could be very key to this whole thing. But alice says no friggin' way, and I never say anything. Well, I'm blabbing. Sorry!
~L
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