Posted by Lorelai on October 2, 2002, at 15:10:31
In reply to Re: Disassociative Disorder/Alter Egos » Lorelai, posted by judy1 on October 1, 2002, at 22:48:44
> You sound as if you have a great shrink if she has a strong enough ego to realize her lack of training in this area. Did you explain your feelings of abandonment, or did she offer to still have sessions to help with the transition? My shrink referred me to a therapist who is an expert in disociative dissorders, so I see both- but I must admit that my therapist has been a great deal of help to me. As the other posters stated this is a very creative coping style- and I wonder if you've had difficulties- or do you just want to have an integrated personality. Talking to 'alters' is very common, particularly child alters. I tend to dissociate for hours or days and I'm not aware of what happens during that time- sometimes it causes me a great deal of trouble, so I do need help. I wish you all the best- judy
**Hi again judy,
I've never thought of my alter as causing me trouble, but my fiance points out that the gaps in my memory DO cause trouble (and the more I reflect on this today the more I wonder if there is more going on here than I've realized in the past). The chunks of memory loss (which to me seemed miniscule, but I'm finding via friends that they notice it more than I'd thought--I used to love to blame meds or the fact I'd done a lot of drugs back in the day) cause trouble not only in my relationship with him, but in my relationship with my family and friends. Because I can hang out with someone on a particularly troublesome day and he/she will recall a series of events from A-D whereas I will sometimes only recall A and C, if that makes any sense. I've had disagreements and emotional outbursts because of others' insistence that something happened a certain way when I'm sure it didn't. That sort of thing. So I guess, when looked at that way, I do need some sort of help.
My pdoc has offered to continue seeing me, yes, and I do understand her reasoning behind recommending me to someone with a great deal of experience in this area. Still, it felt like I'd gotten the wind knocked out of me and I'm having a hard time coming to terms with it.
Are you on any sort of meds and do they help? I'm beginning to wonder now if my bipolar diagnosis is going to turn out to be all wrong!
This is all very confusing, but a relief to know there are others out there who understand! Thanks for the post!
Best,
Lorelai
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