Posted by Lorelai on October 10, 2002, at 14:26:13
In reply to Re: just wanted to wish you luck » Lorelai, posted by terramiller on October 9, 2002, at 22:30:08
> Hi. I do understand that conflict of do you tell or not... and sometimes it's too scary or makes you too sick to even think about talking about it. Somehow, if it is necessary you will talk about it. I have a running joke now with my therapist. If I remember something difficult, I call ahead and tell him to make sure the wastebasket is empty so I can puke in it if I throw up in session. I never have, but I feel like I will all the way up to the session and having that bucket next to me makes it easy for me to talk. That's just what I do. You'll find a way when you are ready. My therapist has another helpful saying: He says that what needs to come up will, and what doesn't need to come up he doesn't think he needs to go fishing for. He trusts my head because I've lived this long and done a pretty good job at that considering. Same with you. It sounds like you had a really good meeting with your therapist. I'm happy that you got some of that out. I understand the abandonment issues. Take care, Terra
***Thanks for the support, Terra. Helps more than you know (well, then again, you probably do know)! My new therapist wants me to read up on this dissociative stuff (I see I spelled it wrong at the top of this thread--I pretty much know less than nothing about it, which accounts for my freaked out posts here. Have been so absorbed in studying bipolar disorder, autism--my 3rd grade son is autistic--and looking up every new med the pdoc puts me on). Anyway, the doc says it may put my mind at ease to know more about it and that it's not that I'm crazy--which is pretty much what some of you in this discussion have been telling me. That I'm NOT totally around the bend. For years I knew I had some major problems, but kept my mouth shut because I had scary visions of being locked up. When I had my children, suddenly it became even more crucial to me that I stay as sane as possible. So admitting I even have problems has been difficult. I like the idea about the waste basket to throw up in. I don't usually feel like getting sick when I think of things that may or may not come up. Mainly I feel agitated (REALLY agitated, like hyper-stressed). I like what your therapist says:
what needs to come up will, and what doesn't need to come up he doesn't think he needs to go fishing for. Sounds like sound wisdom to me (:
Thanks so much for your reply!
~Lorelai
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