Posted by morgan miller on July 10, 2010, at 21:28:19
In reply to Re: Holy Basil Rocks!))) Morgan, posted by Lao Tzu on July 10, 2010, at 20:08:16
Hey Lao, when I have more energy I will give you a better reply : )
Relationships are very difficult for me right now with as bad as I've been feeling. Things are more complicated than what I have revealed so far. There is something I did a few years ago and it is driving me crazy. I find that it is consuming me. It's physical and it was done out of vanity. I totally regret it. This is definitely getting in the way of me feeling good in general, which is affecting my ability to just live comfortably in the moment and enjoy being with women.
I'm a total mess and live with my father and I still seem to find a way to meet woman and sort of date them. The girl I'm dating now is great but she is growing tire of my suffering. I can't blame her and I think I am going to talk to her and tell her she would be much better off if she stopped dating me. I want to be friends with her and I hope we will be able to continue on with a good friendship. I've grown somewhat dependent on her for relief from the pain I feel. I am starting to shut off any feelings I have for her in preparation for us not seeing each other anymore.
I used to be quite the ladies man, but like you I have never really had a relationship that has gone much longer than a year. The few times that I was in serious relationships, the two of us feel in love hard and fast. They were always very passionate but ended up rocky riddled with dysfunction. I understand it all now and I'm much more mature in so many ways but I am more f*ck*d up in so many other ways than ever before to the point where it is harder than ever to enjoy a relationship or even attract the right person. Ugh....
Morgan
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