Posted by tensor on January 18, 2013, at 13:20:34
I have been thinking about this lately. As I recovered from a two year long depressive episode which resolved last summer, and now having a dip. Although I think/hope recent adjustments in my medications will get me to job at monday.
How far should you be prepared to go? I can't speak for anyone else except for me, but in my age and situation it is kind of obvious that either I manage to work, have a life, get a woman, family etc. or I'll be spending my life on the couch with no future and great bitterness. Yes, it is that bad for me and sadly for many of us. Have you seen the great show 'Breaking Bad'? I have seen every episode. That show made me think, how far am I prepared to go to not end up as a couch potato?
There is a limit as to what a pdoc can or will prescibe you. But where should that limit be placed? There's a lot of talk about dependence when it comes to certain classes of medicines, such as benzos and stimulants. Now, the ones of us who have been in this circus long enough usually do not have any problems getting meds like that prescribed, because we are trusted to handle that kind of medicines because of our long history and because it would not serve us any good abusing them. It's a mutual trust and confidence.
I know for sure that I could not handle another two year break-down again, I do not have that strength in me anymore. I can not see how it can not be justified to try anything there is pharmalogically. Wheather it be morphine and its derivatives, ketamine or even cocaine. My mum died from terminal cancer a long time ago. Now, I'm not going to compare depression and cancer but depression can also be terminal. I'm not suicadal but if I slip down in a deep depression again I know the prescripted medications won't help. I know narcotics are lower than sub-optimal, but if it can buy me a couple of years, why not?Just a few thoughts. Would be nice to here what you think.
/tensor
poster:tensor
thread:1035749
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20130112/msgs/1035749.html